Why do people fall in love, I know it's a hard question I've been in love only twice in my entire life. Both times the women have been disappointments so much so I wonder if I would fall in love again afterwards. One woman fell for at university who always seemed to be on every committee I now know has married a Jewish gay doctor, and I know that as one of her 'friends' who got married told her lover (not her husband) after a bit on the side!

I'm rapidly finding myself asking weird and wonderful questions many of them seem really unimportant but some of them sometimes seem to hit the nail on the head. Like why does Will always tell me about his sex life or why I so busy these days I find it hard ever to switched off or when I am switched off to go out! Here I amwriting a post at 3.30 in the morningon the outskirts of one of the greatest cities in the worldand all I can do is think about sex and life.

The fact is the over the last few yearsmy life has been in the slow lane its only in the last few months since I took up law that things have speeded up.Many of my friends are worried that they are going to lose their jobs now and only three of my friends have married ( and out of the 3 only one has had a child but he got married 4 years before the other two!).I'm halfway to 28 years old, in three days my blog http://ian-s-world-today.blog.co.uk/ is going to be just a year old itself. When I think of all the women I kissed, slept with I realize that's not for women in love with a single one of them really. The only one I not slept with is married to a gay man and most of her so called friends would knife her in the back if they through it would give them any advantage.

Meanwhile if I don't meet someone in the next two years I risk the fate that she will have,I have to say that first loves are people that you never forget about the only problem is even if they are single you know you must never go back. Both men and women know one thing about the dating game or the mating like I like to call it! The Mr Big of sex and the city is just a pipe dream the fact is you should never go back and I suspect I never will.The other issue is that I keep having this recurring dreamI've been having it since the first year of university it's really a nightmare.In the dream I wearing a black suit in New York or London the object of my affectionis walking towards me and she hasa six-year-old little girl I too busy on so I don't notice her but she goes straight into me. I then realize that it's hershe starts telling me about how she's getting divorcedbut I'm in a rush for some unknown reasonso I don't really talk to her.I wake up in a hot sweatat university I get some water from the sinkat home I tend to go down to the kitchen.The fact ismy dream seems to predicted the futureI am indeed working in a job or are likely to have to wear a suit she is married to a man she will at some point have to divorce.There's nothing really nightmarish in the dream upon from one thingthe fact that I'm so busy that I don't care to ask if she is ok?

At the end of the day we are all in the same race to find the right person, and I know with a certain amount of satisfaction that I tried my best to stop the mess before it happened but I had to move on with my life.I've never try to work out what dreams mean but this dream keeps on repeating itself.Based on what I know about his situation and based on what I know about my lifeit's almost certain that I'll meet her one-day she'll be upsetI'll and I will have to make a decision on whether to help her or not.I hope I'm not the person in the dream but I don't hope it for me but for her!